you strum the strings of my imagination.

Sunday, May 29, 2005

I lost my wallet today. :(
For the first time in my whole bluidy 17 years of my life. And it felt like shit. I wasted a fucken 10bucks on Madagascar which was horrendous and I slept in that bluidy theatre, and after I left? My wallet was gone. I was seriously depressed shitless.

The best thing is, I really liked that wallet.
Especially because Yanyu gave it to me. :(

Well, but thanks to Cheryl, Wanyi, Wanjun, their brothers, Dawn and Jen, I don't feel that miserable anymore. :)

11:10 PM

Basket.
I'm currently talking to Andrea and I realised..
Where has all the hot lesbian action gone to?
WHERE WHERE WHERE.
Singapore has zilch of it la.
I wanna go to melbourne.
NOW.

Bye Singapore! (:

11:35 AM

Monster-In-Law is one of the better movies I've caught so far. Doreen, Chang, Wanyi and I burst out in hysterics almost every other minute. I think we laughed too loudly too. Hahaha. But it's really good. AND YOU KNOW WHAT?! I HAVE THE VCD!!! So I'm gonna watch it again. Hehehehe.

So after the movie, we went down to Spinelli's to meet Bernie, Kyna and Winnie. It wasn't that dreary this time around, fact being that we didn't exactly stay for long, but it was rather fun nonetheless. (: Bernie was carrying her strikingly pink and big Patrick Balloon around. My goodness.. It was such a hindrance la. Hahaha.

I can't wait for next week to arrive. It's party after party after party. Hehe. I just hope the week after would be just as fun as well. Ahhh, but there's still mids to mug for. Shucks. That thought alone is enough to kill my holiday mood. Ohwell. Okay, I wanna go watch Monster In Law now. Haha! Adios!

12:22 AM

Saturday, May 28, 2005

I wish that somehow you'd realise
how much you truly mean to me,
and how much I wish to be closer to you.
Much closer.

I miss you.

2:07 PM

Last night really did conciliate for the horrendous day I had due to my papers. Saw alot of people in town too. RACHEL, Yanyu, Bonnie, Inka, Junwei, Sam etc. Best of all, it was definitely great to have bumped into Daphne and Denise last night. Even Kenneth was there. Haven't seen him in eons. Twits planned on watching a movie, but all the tickets were already snapped up. That's good though, because spending time with Daphne and Denise at Rockies was really enjoyable. Haha laughed so much that I thought I was gonna choke on my smoke. Missed those Sec2 days back in Stmargs where Cheryl and I would always sit outside their classes with all the other seniors staring at us. hurhur. And the times when we'd head to Taka and have a picnic feast of everything and anything straight after school. And the best thing is, almost all was free. Basement 3 was our "territory". Haha. I guess they really ignited my days in Stmargs. Miss it a lot.

So kenneth left when we joined them, and Denise had to leave soon after cause she's gotta work. Apparently, she's working as a door bitch for Onyx, or however you spell that club's name. And Daph's still working at M1. We chilled at rockies for round 1 of our bitching and gossipping session and walked aimlessly around town for a short while till Catherine came. Crystal joined us too. Headed down to Holland V Brekos to have beer and my baked potato! Then we started on Round 2 of gossipping and bitching. Quoted from Cheryl to Daph "I feel like I'm the bitchiest person around whenever I meet you." Hahaha. I had sooo much fun seriously. We were all laughing madness.

Oh, and I got attached last night too. 27th May 2005. To my dear beloved Daphne. Part time, no sex. Hahahaha. It felt damn good catching up with them with all the happenings in our lives. I have crazily awesome seniors, really. (: (:

Alright, it's time to head out to meet my fellow twits again. Bernie's supposed to join us but smth cropped up at home. Ohwell. Gonna catch Monster in law. Hope it's good. Town's awfully crowded according to Tricia though. Shucks. Hate crowds, they get me pissy. Thank God my crowd of friends are fabulouso! Haha, blog later.

1:10 PM

Friday, May 27, 2005

Today's General Paper Examination..
It made me feel as if I was linguistically deficient.
I'm not kidding.
I can't complain much about my essay although I fucked it up really badly because I only returned home at 1am last night, and yes, belle didn't study shit.
AQ Comprehension was the major cause of the realisation of my stupidity. In almost every sentence, there was at least a word that I do not comprehend its bona fide meaning. I did not complete my AQ and left questions blanked. Those that were filled, were absolute gibberish. Every paper that I've handed in today was a F grade paper. Belle's a genius, I know. (:

Okay I'm gonna rush out now. Almost the entire CJ population is in town now I think. Yikes, blue city. And I've so many random thoughts in my head now that it's gonna burst.

I miss you, very much.

6:16 PM

My dear dear prettttyyyyyyy Sasa.
Belle misses you very very much.
but you're always toooo busy with your baby to go out with me.
Please make some time for me, okay?
Haha, anyway hope to see you soon. (:

And you know something?
In fact, I really do miss you.
Was just reminiscing earlier today.
And everytime I think about the both of us.
It's just 2 words.
Thanks, as well as Sorry, for everything.
I'm just glad you're happy now. (:

12:46 AM

Thursday, May 26, 2005

semiramis. // i hv a cute boyfriend. so SUE me.

Sometimes, I do really wanna sue you and that beloved boyfriend of yours. Suddenly Belle time has seem to have dissolved, relinquished, dissipated into nothingness. You're either too busy with him, school, church and all the people along with that. Yeah, perhaps it's not sometimes that I wish I didn't have to miss you this much, it's often. Especially now, fact being we haven't really spoken nor seen each other for a half a month. You don't initiate to call, nor do you return my phonecalls. -shrugs. I don't know how've you been, and everytime I think of you, I just pray that everything's going well. And I think about you all the time. But even if things are shaky, there's always him. I disgard how infantile I might sound, because this deprivation is getting to me, like hell. And you wonder why sometimes I can get so irascible regarding this issue. Perhaps this is how you've made out your life to be, and I guess it's going on good. Afterall, silence from the other side probably means that things are fine, you don't need me. Nonetheless, do take care. And Sean, if you're reading this, take good care of her.

1:19 PM

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

School was horrid today. Absofuckinglutely horrendous.
Firstly, no one informed me that there was a Econs Test. Thank goodness it was just MCQ, but I still failed anyway, by 1 pathetic mark.
Secondly, I got lectured in the lecture theatre in front of everyone. Yayness. Gail Ng sure does have terrifying eyes, I tell you.
Thirdly, I fucked up my geog test even though I did study a little yesterday. Didn't have ample time to finish up the questions, or rather, copy down the answers for the questions. hurhur. (You know, the ironic thing about Belle here, is that she doesn't study shit although she knows the specified topics and questions that will be coming out for the test. And eventually, she still fails. Yay. :/)
Fourthly, the weather was so fucken hot in school today, I almost died.

Anyway, my day was salvaged fortunately when I went over to Dawn Jen's house after school. Best impromptu decision made. Haha went there to mug on my geog assignment, while they continue their swotting up of chinese. sianjibua. And the first thing that I did when I reached their place was to embarrass myself AGAIN. (wth is wrong with me?) Candice opened the door for me, but i thought it was Jen, so I said "hellO!" to her in perhaps, well, an overly enthusiastic manner, and I think that really took her by surprise so she kinda burst out laughing at me. :/ Haha what the heck.

Jen went out for dinner with Mervyn, so I whipped up Cheese Omelette for Dawn! Belle's a chef, I tell you! Not a really good one though. Haha. I shall go brush up on my skills, then cook for you again k, hun? Next time I'll be a master chef. hurhur. (: So we just idled in front of the telly wathching the lamest of shows, but it still felt good to just be watching tv right beside the one you love. (: We went back into Jen's room to study, where Dawn fell asleep soon after. So I tucked that silly girl into bed and left her place, saying bye to her mom, Candice and dustball. Met Jen on the way out, and gave her the last hug of today.

What a nice way to end my day. (:

11:33 PM

Monday, May 23, 2005

Belle's new favourite hangout..

Dawn Jen's place. (:

I am gonna self invite myself for a major sleepover camp or something during the holidays. hurhur. But first, I need to stock up their house with food. Cause apparently, Dawn doesnt like to eat. Jen doesnt eat unless there's food. And most of the time, they just starve themselves. :/ Nonetheless, I love them both, and their crazy dog dustball. :D

11:19 PM

Something's wrong with me.
Or rather, my stomach.
I've been waking up to severe diarhoeaa issues for the past few mornings, and it was of no exception today. Afterwhich I'll feel annoyingly queasy as if I'm gonna hurl any moment, but nothing would ever come out. That will then leave my stomach to churn for the entire day. And ironically, despite being hungry, I wouldn't have the appetite to eat. The sight and smell of food induces puke. Seriously. :/

Yay, belle's gonna die of indigestion or something.
Wish me luck for my next morning of horrid defecation. :/

(I apologise for the appalling content)

11:09 PM

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Oh, and I just remembered what Cheryl, Joyce and Doreen were singing at Mango. :/

Isabelle, Isabelle, bo Bisabelle
Banana fanna fo Fisabelle
Fee fy mo Misabelle, Isabelle!

And they all started laughing and laughing and laughing.
@#()&@(!&@*&*!@

12:56 AM

Saturday, May 21, 2005

I think the toilet beside Zara at Taka is one of the most happening places for me this year. No joke. A replay of the scenario today..

>Belle and Doreen entered the ladies.
>Belle saw Denise and ran out.
>Frantically and jumpily waved at Cheryl
>Belle (excitedly) : Omg Omg! Denise is inside!!
>Belle rushes back in again.
>Cheryl : REALLY?!
>Cheryl : I wanna see Denise Keller!
>Cheryl rushes in too.
>Cheryl realises it was not Denise Keller and left the toilet 'disappointed'.
>Cheryl (exclaiming loudly) : CHEYBAH. It's not Denise Keller la. CJ's Denise.
>Wanyi (non-discreetly) : Oh, you mean Belle's Ulimate eyecandy, Denise??
>Joyce, Wanyi, Cheryl laughed.
>Denise walked out laughing, and headed towards her boyfriend who was standing a mere metre away.
>Joyce, Wanyi, Cheryl froze.
>Then burst out into hysterics after Denise and boyfriend left.

Belle's seriously a complete embarrassment.
I have no idea how I can actually be this embarrassing.
And you know what?
It's always and especially the case when it comes to my eyecandies. :/
Her boyfriend probably told her how ridiculous I was jumping and going insane, and everything else that my friends had said. Yayness. Belle's a social suicide. I am never gonna be able to lift my head up in school anymore. I don't even wanna go back to school. I can't believe I'm this embarrassing. I'm as good as dead. :/

11:59 PM

Wanyi's currently in the shower, taking her own sweet time, while I'm waiting impatiently to scrub off the smell of oil and smoke reeking on me. We just came back from Chomp Chomp. Our first visit there!! Haha. Food was pretty good la. Went down with Chang, Bernie, and Keith. Dawn, Jen and their friends came as well, although we were seating at seperate tables. Rach, Matt, Valentina, Wai kit, and their friends were at the other end of Chomp Chomp too. It was like a massive yet segregated gathering or some sort. hurhur. I had fun though. (:

Before that, we were just all chilling out at Spinellis' again. Wanyi, Chang, Darren, Henry, Bernie, Andrea, Matt, Rach and Valentina. We left for Chomp after Keith arrived. Bernie was a saviour seriously. Both Andrea and herself totally cracked Wanyi, Chang, Darren and I when they arrived, and rescued us from our boredom. Haha. We couldn't control bursting out into hysterics and we laughed until our jaws, stomachs and backs hurt. Hahaha. Bernie's damn funny and cute la. Tomato Tan. Haha. We should ask her out more often. A new addition to the Co-Twits. Haha.

Anyway, had my haircut. It's as short as I wanted it to be I guess. Wanyi finally snipped off her hair too!! Haha, I tricked her into coming down to have her haircut, and now she looks simply fabulous la! Belle's a genius. :D I bet she'll be noticed much more when school reopens on Tuesday. haha anyway, Chang, Dawn, and Jen had their hair cut too. I can't believe they snapped a picture of me in the stupid yellow clip. I looked like a total moron la. :/ Dawn and Jen refused and refused and REFUSED to snip their hair short, even though they look much better in short hair. OHWELL. Still beautiful to me anyway. (:

Okay, Wanyi's out of the shower! FINALLY, my turn to bathe! :D

1:15 AM

Friday, May 20, 2005

CJ's Sports Carnival today.

Well, went there in PE attire due to the lost of money for our class jerseys. The senior classes had theirs on. Sigh. Such disappointment, especially because I was strangely very excited about it. And good ol' Sophie just had to come over to flaunt la. Haha but it's nice (:

My class played Ultimate Frisbee. I have no idea why they had chosen to play that. I was hoping that we'd play Softball, Bball, Netball or better, Floorball. But my senior class has already chose that. Ohwell, it wasn't that bad though. But we still got trashed anyway. Haha. I'm not so sure about the senior class. Think they won 1 game? Haha good enough la. And the game I watched? They were up against T24 (Tricia's class). Sophie crashed her knee though. She was limping around the court la. Don't know which idiot kept ramming into her. Blind blind bat. :/ Anyway, hope your knee doesn't hurt as much anymore. Take care, yes? (:

Wanyi took part in bball and won 3rd placing. Haha SOO FUN LA. I wanted to play too. :( Yadayada. and now I am going out to cut my hair. Pray that it'll look good. PRAY PRAY PRAY. Okay, I'll shut up. Bye!

I miss twits by the way. very much.
I miss all 10 of us hanging out together. :(

3:07 PM

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Happy 17th Birthday, Henry! (:

Went out to town to spend his birthday with Henry today. Darren and Karina joined us for dinner at Pasta Cafe, Taka. Sem was supposed to be there, but I guess stuff cropped up at home. -shrugs. Dinner was damn filling. Karina only had a baked potato though. Haha. Well so we walked around, and landed up at cine.

Played a round of pool, and left cause Henry and Karina were in half uniform. Sheesh. Went down to the arcade to play Air hockey, and Karina and I thrashed them!! HAHA! GUYS ARE SUCKERS. =x okay, so we played daytona afterwhich and I won the first round! But attained 4th on the 2nd. (karina was damn sly) Haha.

Went down to TCC and we had deserts. Bought poker cards and played bridge. Tanessa joined us. So there. That's how we spent Henry's birthday. Simple yet truly enjoyable. We all had a good time laughing. And Henry, I LOVE MY HAT OKAY. idiot. Haha. Oh, and Darren was really amused by karina's klutziness. Hahaha.

Hope this birthday wasn't a flop for you, Henry. Hope you enjoyed yourself. (:

11:56 PM

From a mere eyecandy, to acquaintances
To friends, to even closer friends
To dates, to abhorrence
To strangers, to just acquaintances once again.

And just as an acquaintance,
I think I care too much.

I miss you, and the times we shared.
Do you ever think of me?
I wonder.

At least life's treating you good.

4:12 PM

Monday, May 16, 2005

I dreamt that I left Singapore, and migrated to New Zealand.

And you know what? It felt good. Honestly, the word that can encapsulate how I felt as I was leaving for the airport is Liberation. From what, I myself have not a clue. Although I was trying to balance out the paradoxical extremes of euphoria and despondency about the departure, I felt no ounce of stress doing so. Ironic.

The bizzare thing about my dream -- I didn't feel a strong attachment for anyone or anything that would make me stay as I left. Not even Sem. Not even Dawn. Not even Twits. (I migrated with my family, by the way) I just... left. And I was happy. Even when nobody came to send me off. And why New Zealand? Because I love it there, even though some might deride at the moomoos and baabaas there. But screw you. I love it.

And I'd give almost anything to go back to living that dream, indulging in that bliss. It felt so good, I want to sleep forever and never wake up.

3:26 PM

Your Love Style is Agape.

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence.

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.
You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

The flood of quizzes taken clearly shows how bored I am
and the desperation of discovering my self-identity. hurhur.
Forget it, Belle's going to bed.

1:20 AM

Your #1 Match: ESFP

The Performer
You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.
You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #2 Match: ISFP

The Artist
You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.
You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #3 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #4 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver
You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.
You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #5 Match: ESTP

The Doer
You are adventurous and risk taking. You act first, think second.You love being the center of attention. Chances are you were the class clown.Competitive, charming, and charasmatic - you have your own code of honor.You live a flexible life, bouncing between a series of activies that interest you.
You would make a great salesperson, marketing director, or entrepreneur.

What's" Your Personality Type?

1:12 AM

Your Birthdate : September 16

Your birth on the 16th day of the month gives a sense of loneliness and generally the desire to work alone.
You are relatively inflexible, and insist on your being independent.
You need a good deal of time to rest and to meditate.
You are introspective and a little stubborn.
Because of this, it may not be easy for you to maintain permanent relationships, but you probably will as you are very much into home and family.
This birth day inclines to interests in the technical, the scientific, and to the religious or the unknown realm of spiritual explorations.

The date gives you a tendency to seek unusual approaches and makes your style seem a little different and unique to those around you.
Your intuition is aided by the day of your birth, but most of your actions are bedded in logic, responsibility, and the rational approach.
You may be emotional, but have a hard time expressing these emotions.
Because of this, there may be some difficulty in giving or receiving affection.

Hmmm. I wonder how true is that. hur.

12:58 AM

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

12:05 AM

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Look at the time, belle just reached home not long ago. hurhur.
Ain't gonna sleep just yet, because my dear wanyi isn't able to enter her house. Her stupid uncle is still watching his damn tv. He should seriously just go to bed so that she can enter her place and I can go to sleep. zZzZzzZz.

Anyway, the party at Indochine tonight was rather disappointing despite the crowd. It was terribly packed, but which party ain't? The crowd was relatively good at the start of the party, but it worsened as time dragged on. Rachel left with Matt not long after they entered. :( The older generation started swarming in and they started to replay the music all over again. They even played songs by Simple Plan. Cute. :

It wasn't that enjoyable for me, since I was busy fending off others, and I was missing someone whom I wished had come. But naw.. Ohwell. Plus I got extremely annoyed with WC. He seriously pissed me off. Firstly, he's capable and rich enough to get his own pack of sticks, but he just had to freeload off me. His constant demand for it got to my nerves eventually. Look, Matt didn't even request for one even though his were bad. Secondly, if you want my lighter, FINE. Can't you just bluidy hell spare me a few seconds to take it out? Need you fucking raise your voice at me? It's damn hell rude. And if I want my lighter back, you bluidy hell give it to me. Don't make me "beg" for something which BELONGS to me. You don't own any sticks to light in the first place, so fuck off. Thirdly, you abandoned your friend to join us at the dancefloor. That's cool. But don't leave my friend out as you do so. Because you're not exactly the main invite, thank you very much. Get your own group of friends, if you must. Fourthly, SHUT THE HELL UP AND STOP DISSING ME ABT MY HEIGHT AND EVERYTHING ELSE. You really were being an asshole tonight.

Okay, I just needed bitch it off my system before I can get a good night's sleep. Oh, and Chang really couldn't drink. Wanyi and I were pretty worried abt her. She was tipsy and flaming red after her 2nd glass. She was sliding off her chair when we went for supper at Macs. And her neuro system literally slowed down. Haha. Thank goodness I took a cab back with her. That silly twit. We were saying how much we really miss Andrea and Cart. The fun would be very much elevated if they were back in this sunny island. Ohwell. But they're having the time of their lives over at Aussie la. Clubbing every week. idiots. Haha.

And just at the right time. Wanyi has FINALLY entered her place, so I can head off to bed in peace now. It turned out to be that her cousin was the one watching the telly instead of her uncle. That stupid girl. Haha. So anyway, goodnight. Belle needs her beauty sleep. (:

4:18 AM

Saturday, May 14, 2005

You know, because of all the MCs received for the past 3 weeks, Belle hasn't run nor exercised much since then. And yesterday, there was bball training. It was no doubt fun but I was extremely exhausted afterwhich. My head hurt like fuck after the match between juniors and seniors (of course the juniors got thrashed) and 2 of my toenails are gonna drop off. hurhur.

Rushed home, and was rushed by Chang to meet her to head out to town. I could have killed her, seriously. I abhor being rushed, especially when my hurt was throbbing like @*#(*^!@. It was so crazily agonizing, my mother thought I was gonna faint from it or smth. I was honestly quite annoyed with her impatience, and her lack of understanding at that point of time. But after we met at the station, the blood of a bitch in me relinquished. Oh, and we were wearing identical outfits. SUCKS. :

Well anyway, headed down to town to meet Rach, Matt, Waikit, Doreen and Wanyi. Met Dawn, Jen, Jeannine and Zoe to collect my honeyed cornflakes which were overwhelmingly sweet, but good anyway. It helped me with my gastric problems twice last night. Haha. (: Bumped into Jon, and chang says he's growing cuter. Haha. Finally, a cute guy cousin. Not that the rest are horrid looking, but aiyah, whatever. Henry joined us for a bit afterwhich, and... that's about it.

Think we're heading down to Indochine for the CJ party tonight. Hopefully it'll be good. And I gotta go style my hair before I'm late in meeting Chang again. The obligations of my life. :\

2:47 PM

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Was just reading through the conversations I saved before in my laptop. And the ones that I came to realise that the conversations that I enjoy reading most are the ones I had with Dawn. All of our conversations always brings a smile to my face, at the very least. They really hark me back to such unforgettable remarkable memories. Some even caused me to burst out laughing. Haha.
And well, for everything that you have bestowed to me, materialistic or unmaterialistic, whether you're aware of it or not, I thank you sincerely for each and everyone of them. You have made one of the largest contributions in making my life this wonderful.

I love you, hun. (:

1:00 AM

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Today's my first day of school after my long break. Although the day was supposed to be short, it got extended ONLY for me. I had to stay back to take my GP test for an hour and a half, followed by another hour and a half of Lit Test, and I probably had to see Michael Tan for detention afterwhich. But of course, knowing Belle, I only went for my GP test and skipped the rest of the bullshit. Gonna get screwed tmr, most probably, but ohwell. Mom's getting pretty uptight abt me and school ever since my long break. She knows how much I dread school now. She, like everyone else, was taken aback to have known I hated school. Yeah, how can anyone not possibly like CJ huh? :
Well, I headed down to Town to meet Joyce and Chang. Bumped into Bernie and Andrea. They were both wearing green. Haha so cute. It was fun just roaming around town with Joyce and Chang, they both crack me up. (: So, I left for Dawn Jen's place afterwhich for a supposed game of Mahjong. And I found out something that annoyed the shit outta me. The stupid market opposite Dawn Jen's place does not sell Chocolairs. UGH. I was so sian by the time I scouted every darn stall. So anyway, we didn't play mahjong in the end. Dawn Jen and Sasa watched Spongebob while I did work in Dawn's room. And afterwhich we had a insulting session while watching the 9pm show. Haha. Jen's really funny la. Cursing and cursing non-stop. Tsk. And Sasa was just going crazy as usual. No surprise at all. Dawn was under her influence. :Haha, anyway I had great fun at their place. Left after Eye for a Guy was over. Unfortunately. I am so gonna camp out at their place one day. Jen says I'm welcomed anytime, anyway. Haha :D

Sasa left with me. And as we were walking through the blocks to the bus stop, we were tailed. :\ First time in my whole entire life, I was stalked. A stupid orange freaky cat followed Sasa and I from the stairs all the way to the corridors of the void deck. When Sasa and I tried to hide from it, it just stopped at the corner when it couldn't see us, and waited for us to make a move again. So as I was looking out for that dumb cat, I knocked my head against some glass bulletin board or something. Wth. :\ When we continued walking out of the void deck, that shit cat followed swiftly after the both of us again. That's when both Sasa and I got freaked and started to walk really quickly. She was silently screaming, as all of you would have expected. She's damn afraid of cats la. Haha. I couldn't stop laughing man. Damn funny although freaky. Well, manage to lose it when we got out of the hdb blocks. Thank goodness. Such a freaky cat. :
It's gonna be a long day at school tmr. May God bless me soo much.

11:53 AM

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Every night, I look at my timetable.
And I don't wish to attend school anymore.
In fact, I haven't been attending school for the past week.
My presence was only made for 3 hours last friday
And so far, that's it.

Albeit I got to make awesome friends in CJ, and my classmates crack me up most of the time.
I've been dreading school ever since Karina left.
Wanyi's great company, but our timetables doesn't exactly permit us to spend much time in school together.
So there you go.
Belle hates school.
I really wanted to be in the same school as Sem or Chang, but wishes hardly ever come true anyway.
And I can't exactly withdraw from school, because I know I'll be some worthless twit that wouldn't be able to apply for poly nor get a good paying job to survive.
Like Jen said, please pray for a divine intervention for me. :
School dreading aside.
I caught House of Wax with Sem yesterday. Well, at least the first hour of it. It was too gruesome for me to remain seated in the cinema. We both couldn't stand the grotesque of it all, so we left. It was one of the best decisions ever made. :Today, I caught The Kingdom of Heaven with Dawn and Chang. Although I was supposed to be home since I didn't attend school today. Well anyway, it wasn't as good as it was said to be, but pretty alright. It was rather draggy, but didn't cause me to snooze off. So it's passable.
And for both days, I had chicken rice for dinner. Yay.

11:43 PM

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Baby, if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear

Often I have wished so much
that time would have permitted us to meet under different circumstances, through different people, at different timings.

And I bet all of you don't know who I'm referring to.
HURHUR. =x

11:59 PM

The Good things that happened this weekend.

Friday

- CJ hockey beat SA 3-0!
- Met Krystal! (:
- Met Karina (:
- Coincidentally had dinner with Sem. Finally. (:
- Doreen treated me to Chocolate Rhumba. Thanks laoma (:
- Met up with Dawn, Jen, Sasa. missed them so much. (:
- Henry and Darren joined in. (:

Saturday

- My voice became killer sexy.
- Town with Cheryl, Wanyi, Doreen, Henry, Vernon, Winnie, Denny, Mirza and Li Hui.
- Saw Yanyu (:
- Supper with Jen.
- Stayed over at Dawn Jen's. Because Jen spooked the shit outta me.
- Stayed up till 6am just talking to Jen and eating Frosties. Haha (:
- Didn't get punched while sleeping beside her.

Sunday

- Having Dawn and Jen be the first 2 people I see in the morning. (:
- Talked to Andrea. (:
- Tricia and I msged a little bit.
- Watched the entire Season 8 of Friends
- Family photo taking. (:

5:38 PM

Friday, May 06, 2005

Remove the footprints you etched in my life
Those that harks me back to the times you once cared
Erase the reminiscence of you and I
Toss it far away, beyond the scope of my eye
Heal the scars from where my wounds were once raw
May it remind me of you no more
Drag me away whenever my soul thirsts
Diminish every ounce of hurt from every thought of you
Slap and lash me, remind me of the truth.
Liberate me from the shackles of you.

Why do I still miss you?

2:23 PM

I broke down last night.

After so many nights of holding back,
so many days of building my barricade.

I cried tears of reminiscence, tears of yearn.
Tears that really hurt.

As each tear dripped from my eyes,
I could feel the ripping of my heart.
I could feel the agony I felt back then
as the tears streamed from my face to my pillow.

No use crying over spilt milk,
but I cried.

I cried for the times we shared.
I cried for the memories we built.
I cried because I know that you've left.
I cried because things will never be the same between us.
I cried for my failures in making it work out
I cried because I don't know how you're doing
I cried because I missed you very very much
And I cried because in spite of all,
I still love you.

1:40 PM

Thursday, May 05, 2005

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt the feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
We belong together

I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby
We belong together

5:59 PM

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Nat just msged me and asked if I called to make a dedication on the Perfect10. Obviously I didn't, because I rarely listen to the radio anymore. But yea well, a girl named Belle (who sounds exactly like me too) dedicated the song 'Beautiful Soul' by Jesse McCartney to another girl, named Tricia. How coincidental can this possibly get? How many 'Belle's are actually acquainted with 'Tricia's? :\ Well, I was..

Nat said that at least by not being friends, she doesn't make me sad anymore. How I wish that were true. I need that to be projected into reality anyway. Sigh, ohwell. Sometimes I'd just wanna drop a msg to check on how's she doing, but then again, it wouldn't be regarded as much, so what the heck. Besides, as infantile as this may sound, the friendship's off anyway. Sigh. I just miss her. (Wanyi, please dont slap me)

Ahh well, that aside. My dear beloved sweetest Wanyi came over today to pass me my stuff but I was soundly asleep. Fell asleep after medication and while watching Friends. I LOVE FRIENDS! Well anyway! Wanyi, being herself, took the laptop away from me, placed it on her lap, and finished watching the vcd for me. Haha. Such an idiot, which I love. Anyway, thanks again, dear. I owe you one. (:

11:18 PM

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Yayness.

Belle's genuinely sick this time around.

Down with a fever, an aching body that's almost void of energy, a blocked nose, a throbbing headache, an inflaming throat. How great is that? And I can barely open my eyes the entire day. Had absolutely no appetite and couldn't even find the energy to get up to go to the loo. But of course, I didn't wet my pants. I had help. :
No school for me tmr either. I should have just fallen ill tmr instead, so I wouldn't have to attend school on Thurs. Hate thursdays. Wanyi's a dear, really. She's gonna come over tmr to visit this sick patient over here. Actually, she has to pass me my geog notes la. Haha. But nonetheless, I'm really grateful that she's willing to come all the way to my place tmr. Love you dear! Thank you so much. (:

10:29 PM

Thanks Henry. (:

For cheering me up inadvertently, by playing online games with me and letting me triumph over you for the past few nights when I've been feeling rather low. Also, for meeting up today after such a seemingly long time. I enjoyed your company. love! (:

Thanks Wanyi. (:

For listening to my rants and gibberish every morning, for being the few reasons why I enjoy school now. I bet you're gonna get sick of me one day, but meanwhile, I'm enjoying every minute spent together. (:

Thanks Cheryl. (:

For meeting me whenever possible so as to save me from desolation, and for being the few people who sees and understands me for who I really am. I truly treasure our friendship very much. (:

Thanks Joyce. (:

For just being who you are. I've always enjoyed your company very much, although we can hardly meet up with you now. Thanks for coming down earlier. You ended my night on a much better note. (:

This public holiday is well spent with the four of them. Although we grew dreary every now and then, it's nice to have you all around. I enjoyed myself, despite missing people tonight. Love you all, very much. (:

1:00 AM

Monday, May 02, 2005

sigh :(

12:34 AM

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Just when I thought no one would be online for me to talk to at this time of the morning, alice came and talked to me. She must have been feeling awfully bored or smth, probably. Haha. And I think I majorly boosted her already extremely ginormous ego that she possesses. Hahaha she's so thick skinned la! Makes my hair stand on its ends. Hahaha to think that my first impression of her was that she was quite cool and maybe a little standoffish. But in reality, she's just so fulla crap that it makes me wanna laugh at almost everything she says. She's quite fun to talk to, actually. Another boost to her ego if she manages to track down my blog. Haha and in case she does...

Yes, I'm so in much deeply in love with alice. She makes my heart stop beating, makes me stop breathing whenever I see her. She's simply breath-taking. Life is so miserable especially because I don't get to see her every minute of every day. And I can't help but miss her all the time. I can't stop thinking about her. She's my love, my life, my all.

Omg, my nose has extended. Hahahaha.
Ohwell, talking to her was a nice way to end this day nonetheless.
Thanks, girl. (:

3:41 AM

I wanna driveee. :(

Matthew drove me home today. How I wish my boyfriend could do that too. hurhur like as if belle would ever find one. Haha! Anyway! Alice liaw is highly annoying. She's making me confess that I'm absolutely besotted with her, and that I forget to breathe whenever I see her. HURHUR. Such an idiot, really. so fulla shit. Hahaha. :b

Met up with my ex-classmates today. Well, not all of them turned up for the class outing, but ohwell. It was great seeing Winnie and Karina again. Miss them helluva lot in school. I miss my previous class. :( Was supposed to head down to Sentosa but they changed their mind since such a small number of us turned up for the gathering. Went to town to play pool and 'chill' (irony) at nydc heeran. Joyce and Chang came to find me afterwhich, and we went off for dinner.

Watched Coach Carter!!! (Sorry, karina!! We'll watch another movie instead okay?) I'm so gonna purchase the Soundtrack. The movie's hell good, by the way. At least I loved it! So much better than Divergence. Bleah. Headed down to Nat's place to spring a surprise on her for a birthday! Well, it was a belated surprise, but at least it was successful! Hahaha. She was screaming when she reached home, opened the door to her room and saw all of us there with the cake. (:

OHHH!!! AND I MET ADAM AND JUNWEI AT CINE!!!! I was SOOOO happy when I saw Adam!! I haven't seen him in... 2 years?? I missed him so much!! Stupid boy. I think everyone thought we were crazy when we ran and hugged each other for pretty long even though there was a barricade in between the both of us. Hahaha! I was just damn happy la. Junwei and Adam both look the same, yet better. Heh. Miss them both so much. And Junwei's freaking me out. He knows stuff about me in CJ, as so he claims. He even knows that I carry a "green aluminium bag" to school. (It's not aluminium okay!) Gonna dig out stuff from him soon. Haha.

And think I'm getting addicted again. Sigh sigh sigh.
This bites. :\

2:25 AM